So I was thinking about writing. And then I was thinking that what matters most is genuine-ness. That a lot of writing has a lot of affectation in it - when one might try to be grand it comes out overblown (i do that). If one is going to use big great-sounding words use them genuinely. Or something like that. It feels most genuine when I'm writing something and it has the little stammers and stutters and expressions that I would usually use spontaneously when talking. Dashes, pauses, breaks, starting sentences with 'and', fragments. Trying to refine everything to lingual perfection makes it seem too glossed-over, marbled, ironed to the point of removing all character! Complete refinement is boring. There's just no fun in it.

So I'm going to stop being affected. (affectation i mean: consciously keeping up a pose or something of refinement.) The "I desire to be..."s and "Where one could instead..."s are three-quarters affectation. I've done a lot of affectation in the last six months with writing, there are a lot more important things.