honesty
Ugh. This is what I really want to write about.
One month left. College decisions made and deposits sent in and things all set. But I just want to hold summer back and drift here.
What? Next year no drawing comics in the back of math class and passing them to Kent and no sitting next to Jill and Chelsea in creative writing? --- And no sitting about with Jill and Maddie and Jackie in the morning? Or being attacked by Kyle? Or encountering doledi at every turn?
I have always wanted to get out of high school. Most classes are boring and most of the things I am supposed to be learning I have no interest in. Buuut... I'm terrified of stepping past it.
It's not even a big deal really --- I'm not going far for college --- not out of state --- for goodness' sake, my college is closer to my house than Prout is! And I'll be commuting --- no big change?
But some friends won't be around. And the friends who will be around, I'm afraid we won't even see each other. Big school. Not Prout.
I just feel incredibly drifty. And see next year as drifty. As in insubstantial and unstable. And it makes me sad.
It would be absolutely terrible to spend next year missing high school.
I don't think anyone has even realized it because no one ever talks about it, about leaving. We all anticipate graduation but we don't talk about what it means.
Hummmmm.
One month left. College decisions made and deposits sent in and things all set. But I just want to hold summer back and drift here.
What? Next year no drawing comics in the back of math class and passing them to Kent and no sitting next to Jill and Chelsea in creative writing? --- And no sitting about with Jill and Maddie and Jackie in the morning? Or being attacked by Kyle? Or encountering doledi at every turn?
I have always wanted to get out of high school. Most classes are boring and most of the things I am supposed to be learning I have no interest in. Buuut... I'm terrified of stepping past it.
It's not even a big deal really --- I'm not going far for college --- not out of state --- for goodness' sake, my college is closer to my house than Prout is! And I'll be commuting --- no big change?
But some friends won't be around. And the friends who will be around, I'm afraid we won't even see each other. Big school. Not Prout.
I just feel incredibly drifty. And see next year as drifty. As in insubstantial and unstable. And it makes me sad.
It would be absolutely terrible to spend next year missing high school.
I don't think anyone has even realized it because no one ever talks about it, about leaving. We all anticipate graduation but we don't talk about what it means.
Hummmmm.
posted by Laura at 8:09 PM
3 Comments:
College is suppose to be about meeting new people... but we will always find a way to get together! We could do monthly or weekly get-togethers (like a mall trip, movie, etc.) so we all don't forget who we are!
That is the most important thing.
Even if we NEVER see each other again, all you have to do is remember each other once and a while. Remember the good times, the bad times, the wierd times...
^^;;
Oh, yay. Get togethers are good. Don't forget who we are! Especially the weird times. wombat.
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