portfolioooo-oooooooooo

I'm putting together my writing portfolio for college. The question is, what to include? Will the admissions people understand the "...s" on its own line in The Counting-House (and how the spacing of the letters is not typos but is meant to create a speedingup and slowingdown rhythm)? Will they wonder what the heck all that confusion in The Black Night's Alchemy is for (and that it represents an interior tumult of transient visions and phantasms)? And will they see absolutely no reason why the Reprise needs to be Sir Lancelot's (because the meaning of the poem draws from his mythological betrayal of honor for love or lust for Guinevere)?

Not to mention my stories. Will they understand that in Bells and Mist the girl does not throw herself into the water in the end but watches herself disappear into the mist? And the stories I've never posted on here because I always harbored a secret desire of publishing them and didn't want the publishers to google them and think I plagiarized myself? They have deep meanings and intricate symbols but are so hidden in metaphor that it's hard to understand them in words, they are meant to be just felt.

If I could send myself with my applications, it would be dandy, because I'd get to hover over their shoulders and explain everything whenever I noticed a confused look creeping across their faces. But although I am short, I can't stuff myself into an envelope, and I also can't send myself to four separate colleges.

And I was set against doing interviews because I know I'd be nervous and turn into a stuttering blob of stupid.

My writing is cryptic but I like that but I'm afraid no one will understand it. Or won't have enough imagination to get something from it.